Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Where do I start?

From as far back as I can remember, I have been fat.  It's just natural to me.  Growing up in a typical Southern family, everything revolves around food.  A wedding, there's food.  A funeral, there's food.  Church, there's food.  I think you get the picture that literally, everything involves food in some way, shape, or form. 

As a fat person, the older you get, the more in tune you become with yourself, and just how different you are from the rest of the population.  I get that the statistics say that more than half the country is obese.  However, when I go to the mall or out to a restaurant, I only see the "beautiful" people, as I'm sure many of you do as well.  Also, again, maybe it's a Southern thing, but why is fat "cute" when you are young (i.e. a plump little baby with pudgy cheeks), but the older you get, the more being fat becomes like a virus that no one wants to catch?

So, what happens after the fat?  Since this is my first blog, I don't know.  I haven't got there yet.  I am resigned to the fact that I will never be "thin".  It's okay, I own it.  I just want to be healthy.  So, here it goes...I went to a nutritionist yesterday, and I weigh 337.5 lbs.  I think this is the first time in my life that I will actually tell people what I weigh, and its a big step.  However, it's a step that needs to be taken.  She said that I need to set realistic goals for myself in order to start the process of losing weight in a healthy way.  This blog is one of those goals.

I can't change how I grew up, and how I got the way I am now.  I can only go forward.  In a perfect world, the road ahead would be flat and I would reach my goal the easiest way I could.  But, what would be the fun in that?

I'm not going to setup a schedule on when I should blog.  If the mood hits, I will write, because then, nothing is forced and I am letting out my real emotions. 

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  1. Wow... I could have totally written your post. I think the thing that gets me is how incredibly mean people are about weight - it's like their internal common courtesy switch has been turned off and they think they can say whatever they want, because apparently fat people don't have feelings.

    I've been up and down this road before, and it ain't easy, but it can be done. Best of luck to you.

  2. You seem like a really cool guy...keep up the hard work or go eat some Jack's mac and cheese for me. ;)

  3. Thank you Tazia! It is definitely hard work. If you are referencing Jack's BBQ, I could go for their mac and cheese any day of the week!

  4. Yes it is THE BEST!!!! I came to Nashville a little over a year ago and I'm hooked, hope to make it over there again soon.